Friday, October 12, 2007
tidak bukan aku
i'm listening to letto-ruang rindu while updating this blog.It's been a while yeah it's been a while. I'm back in astar.My home sweet home. The main point balik this time is for raya celebration. But honestly i dont feel like raya anymore. I just wanna be back home.Go back to the safest place that I can think of.
I'm trying to be strong as before.I'm trying to forget him like I forget the others. I'm trying to ensure my private life remain private. Deep inside i feel so empty and lost. I know everythin happend for a reason, Allah knows what is the best for me. I'm getting myself closer and closer to Allah. I just need a peaceful life.Another strength to move on.
I did a mistake and I do regret for what I did. I was too much.But I'm tired of crying and keep crying.He promise we wont argue anymore and seriously we did and keep arguing more and more. So this is it, after 7 months of sacrifice each other time.7months drive each other insane, get jeleous of stupid little things, and ensure our so called relationship doesnt turn out to be another office gossip.Finally we END.
I just want to completely forget you. I want you to be far far away from my life.You sucha wonderful guy and I know its all my fault. I just couldnt bare to get hurt more and more. I've been surrounding with sucha great people around me. They keep me smile here. Dont worry .I can take care of myself now.You dont hafta worry like you always did.Neway, I never regret those moment that we had bcoz it was fun and crazy.Guess, I just wrapped it as another best thing that happend in my life.
p/s falling in love again like never been hurt before :)
